In the month since apologizing for her “asshole past” after a slew of bullying allegations, Chrissy Teigen has resumed posting pretty much as normal on Instagram — photos of her kids, various hot sauces, trips to Italy, etc. However, last week, she decided to share more of her thoughts on being relegated to the self-proclaimed “cancel club.” “[I] don’t really know what to say here,” she wrote, “[It] just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter shit in real life.”
To recap: In May, Teigen faced a significant amount of backlash after reality-TV personality Courtney Stodden spoke to The Daily Beast about abusive messages Teigen allegedly used to send them. She “wouldn’t just publicly tweet about wanting me to take ‘a dirt nap’ but would privately DM me and tell me to kill myself,” Stodden told the site. “Things like ‘I can’t wait for you to die.’” Stodden’s allegations prompted other old social-media posts to resurface, specifically tweets in which Teigen had harassed celebrities like Lindsay Lohan and Teen Mom’s Farrah Abraham. In June, Teigen wrote a blog post saying she was “truly ashamed” of her past and apologized for her old tweets. “I’m in the process of privately reaching out to the people I insulted,” she wrote on Medium. “It’s like my own version of that show My Name Is Earl!”
Teigen’s multiple apologies came as brands had already begun distancing from her. After Stodden’s interview, Bloomingdale’s reportedly pulled an impending contract, and Macy’s removed Teigen’s cookware line from its website. Later, cleaning-supply brand Safely, which Teigen launched with Kris Jenner, announced that Teigen would temporarily step away from the company. Most recently, Teigen’s guest-narration role on Netflix’s Never Have I Ever was filled by Gigi Hadid.
In her recent Instagram post, Teigen said she’s been feeling “lost” and “depressed,” noting, “I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay. I’m not used to any other way!!” She added, “Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it. And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow.”
Teigen’s post almost seems to recognize the irony of her lamenting “cancellation” to an audience of nearly 35 million: “I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart.” However, she is apparently self-aware enough to know that she can’t stop herself: “I can’t do this silent shit anymore!” She ended her post with a tongue-in-cheek request: “If you or someone you know has also been cancelled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch!”
Now, it appears Teigen is trying to put some of her lessons learned into practice. Earlier this week, when TMZ asked Teigen her opinion on TikTok star Addison Rae introducing herself to Donald Trump at a UFC fight, she responded, “I have decided I’m not getting involved in anyone’s shit ever again.” When asked how long she thinks she’ll be a member of the “cancel club,” Teigen laughed and said, “I don’t know, it could be forever. I have no idea. I don’t know.”
Meanwhile, Stodden told TMZ this week that despite what she’s said publicly, Teigen has never reached out to them to apologize. “I haven’t received anything from her,” Stodden said. “I don’t know what she’s talking about.”
This post has been updated.